manic monday

after that gruelling 7-11 in the office, nakauwi rin. back to normal uli.

my boss called me sunday evening about this issue, well, again, its my fault. why am i that stupid. lahat na lang ata ng bagay ganun. pero this time. it was an honest mistake. pressured na rin kasi e. after all this things coming at once in my head.

all i need to do is calm down and begin my reality check.

i saw her again kanina. i didn't mind kung napansin nya ako or hindi. at least nakita ko sya. actually i talked to her about a few minutes, then after that, no more. she didn't even pop me in my aol. nothing to worry. its part of moving on.

feeling ko talaga umiiwas na sya. pero wala na kong magagawa dun. i cant force her kung ayaw nya.

she did call me around 2 am to asked for something ( no big deal)

i had a chance na kamustahin si tuesday girl last week. she didnt gave me updates on herself, but on my part, i did.

cool

im really into this song. the best ang ganda...


Behold this night, still and clear
You look here just like an angel sleeping
I wish I could ease your fears
I would catch the diamond tears you're weeping
In your eyes I would hide
By your side I could defy
The forces tearing us apart
But reality, as it seems
Looking back, is that our dream
Was fated from the start

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
To save us from our fate

I'll remain in your hold
Body, mind, heart and soul
As long as I breathe
Though consequence takes its toll
All is out of our control
That's how it will be
So close your eyes my young bride
Listen to me one last time
There's something I have to say
When your faith turns to despair
Always will my love be there
And never fade away

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
To save us from our fate
You can't save us
You can't save us

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
The poison's in our veins
It's true
You know that I'd die for you
You know that I'd die for you
You know that I'd die for you

Forever true
I'll see you through

again

when my colleagues start joking this girl with another guy, whose name i always hear, especially coming from her but i never saw him. ewan ko, parang nairita ako bigla. pangiti ngiti lang pero ayaw magsalita. malakas akong humirit for this kind, but nothing came out from me.

i rememebered stepping away from them and putting my mind out of the issue. nag seselos ba ko! darn.. here we go again.

wala na sya sa buhay ko, pero bumabalik pa rin ang puso ko sa kanya.

cguro pagad na kayo kasi sya lagi topic ko, well ako din pagod na.

team building

its been a while since i last posted here. more things happened last week.

we had our team building...finally. hehehe. we had dinner at CPK and it was fun. ordered 3 kinds of pizza and pasta, yumyum. badtrip nga lang. ndi refillable ung lemonade ko. grr. nag ice tea na lang sana ako. we were 10 that night. lalaine, aldrin, paulo, ryan, erwin, andy, oscar, leya and nanah. paulo had his newlt bought camera. (pautang naman dude) . and it ended up, he's our official team photographer. i'm still waiting for him to send the pics so i can upload it here.

after dinner, we went to rockwell para mag bowling. we went there with two cars. andy's car had the girls with erwin and aldrin. while the rest of us are on oscar's. it was fun, lahat excited. we had 3 games. syempre may pics un. hehehe.

then we watched exorcist. the last show was at 12 midnight. well, as usual, wala si erwin. un pa.
i did not enjoy the movie that well kasi inaantok na ko. hehe

naks serious ah

bodyaches & heartaches

ganun pa rin... malamig pa rin sya. i didnt log-in sa AOL that morning just to stay away. im just making things worst for her(for me pala) kaya ganun. feeling ko kasi the same thing will happen the last time pag nag usap uli kami. even a simple HI for her may ruin her day.. and mine too. ayaw ko ng ganito. parang nag papakiramdaman kami kung mag papansinan ba kami or hindi.

grrr. why am i like this? i tried to let go of her. i forced myself to.. but everything seems to come back to her. waaahhh. hindi naman ako ganito e. and i dont want to.

i should wake up now and stop this foolishness.

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sakit ng katawan ko kahapon. 1 day after namin mag badminton last Sunday. we went to feather alley which is along imelda avenue in cainta. went there with joel and jay. together with diko rod and joan. it was afternoon around 230 when we arrived there. wala pang tao so ayos.

joan bought this racket worth 700+ grabe ang mahal. titanium kasi e. found out na kaya pala nya binili kasi there is a free bag when you buy one. yun daw habol niya. hehehe. pero sa totoo lang, ang ganda ng racket niya. almost 2 and half hours kami naglaro and it cost us P300+ ayos na un compare to the last time which cost us 400+

kahapon lang nag simulang sumakit yung mga katawan namin. a sign telling us that we are not fit. in short kulang sa banat. hahaha. maybe hindi kasi kami nagstreching pero generally speaking..we need to work out some more muscles.

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i watched this movie on hbo kagabi. 13 ghosts. for me ayos ung movie especially ung mga brutal scenes. ive seen it first in wowow and mas ok kasi no cuts which makes it more scarier. by the way napanood ko sya around 11 pm so it adds up to the thrill. sayng nga lang tinanggal nila ung wowow sa cable namin. damn.

weekends

have you ever wonder, is there really a purpose for you living in this world?

i dont know why this idea came to me. it just popped up. there where times i got this feeling, may purpose nga ba ako?

Gising >> Eat >> Office >> Uwi >> TV >> Sleep

pag walang lakad, yan lang ang madalas kong routine. haay. that's why i try to go out on weekends with my brother.

dati mas masaya kasi may gimik buddy ako. we always lookup every weekends para mag gimik. it may be movies, eat all day, or minsan usap lang. pero madalas she decides to have this what she calls movie marathon. the most number of movies we watched in a single day was 4. grabe, sakit na ng mata namin.

but not now..or maybe never.. kasi may boyfriend na siya. labas na ko sa buhay niya. and it sucks..really sucks

pero miss na kita....

whataweek

finally, another week past. whew!!

masaya pa naman sa work. although some of my start group already decided they will be resigning this year. ako, hindi pa siguuro.

my week was mostly focused on my work in the office. a few laughs, some enjoyment and deep down struggles. well..thats life after all. we can never expect what it would give us. maybe happiness..maybe depression... the important thing is to learn from them and move on with life.

work is quite easy this week. just assigned some work to the newbies and some to the old members. i can say theres not a lot of things to do except to wait for sign offs. by the way, that's part of our new procedure since we've been getting these tons of complains from the U.S.

inaamin ko, maraming akong mali, since i was the one acting as lead. i can say ang mali ko dun ay naging maluwag ako. i dont wanna blame anyone for these returns. hindi ko ugali un.

one downside of this week was my fight with this girl. ayaw ko na sana alalahain uli un pero ndi mawala sa isip ko. especially pag may sama ng loob syo ang isang tao. because of this, a GAP between me and her suddenly emerged . a gap that keeps me away from talking to her, or even being with her. feeling ko kasi ang sama sama ng loob niya sa akin. and pag iwas lang ang nagiging takbuhan ko. we've talked, pero im sure hindi maaaliis sa kanya un..kahit sinabi pa nya na ok na kami.

she has always been a close friend for me. actually more than that. more than friends.

she did broke my heart in the past, pero im sure, in myself, mahal ko pa rin sya. i hope things would be better the next time i see her.

DARN!!

i got this fight with my friend last tuesday. grrr.. i hate it, not her. well everythings seems ok until i asked her questions regarding work. i never thought she'd be acting like that. we chat for a while, explaining her case then we decided to talk at starbucks.

well it turns out that she's been sick of me for the past weeks. i have no idea. DARN !!. why am i so stupid and blind. grrrrr

the good thing is, on my part, ok na kami ngayon. now i know the reason why she'd made her decision last April. Haay. lets just move on.

i forgot to greet happy birthday kay "pucca" girl kaninang umaga. may hapon pa naman e. i missed that girl so much. hope to see her soon....

Yehey

what the heck is this!! my blog.. sana may masulat ako. well see..*wink*